Poetry competition CLOSED 28th July 2012 5:13am
WINNER
death12365 (Kayla Moreau)
death12365 (Kayla Moreau)
RUNNERS-UP:
FishCake
and Joker
make me sad
Father...
Father, Listen,
Did life not turn out as you had planned?
The grass not greener, Your rivers dammed?
How was it, that you wound up here?
Moved by hate, Consumed by fear.
Father, Listen,
As I go grey, I wonder will I die this way?
A life of waste, To dwell on rage,
You won't find peace, at your old age!
Father, Listen,
I feared you as a child,
Your unkind temper, It made me wild,
I know my Mother is hard to please,
This sad existence, Now my disease.
Father, Listen,
For just once to me,
The apple, It does, Fall close to tree,
I dead the things that I have learnt,
My wells now dry, My bridges, Burnt.
Father, Listen,
Just come and see,
Just how much I am like thee,
I think I'll rest, Just for a while,
For just one more hour, In denial.
Father, Listen,
Did life not turn out as you had planned?
The grass not greener, Your rivers dammed?
How was it, that you wound up here?
Moved by hate, Consumed by fear.
Father, Listen,
As I go grey, I wonder will I die this way?
A life of waste, To dwell on rage,
You won't find peace, at your old age!
Father, Listen,
I feared you as a child,
Your unkind temper, It made me wild,
I know my Mother is hard to please,
This sad existence, Now my disease.
Father, Listen,
For just once to me,
The apple, It does, Fall close to tree,
I dead the things that I have learnt,
My wells now dry, My bridges, Burnt.
Father, Listen,
Just come and see,
Just how much I am like thee,
I think I'll rest, Just for a while,
For just one more hour, In denial.
Howling for attention
Not so long ago,
I had it all,
Love, a family, warmth
Shelter and food.
With a blink of an eye,
Love turned cold;
The warmth became distant.
I’m a prisoner in my own back yard.
Was it something I did?
I was just being playful
Never would I hurt you on purpose,
Not even for a bit.
Yay!!!!
After almost a year,
Of being attached to some chains,
I’m finally going for a long and well deserved walk.
We’re here! We’re here!!!
But… This isn’t the park.
My leash is being removed
My owner turns around
And drives away
“Wait! Where are you going?”
In panic
I bark, I run and I whimper.
Some months have passed,
I’m mere skin and bones
My fur once so shiny
Today lacks of soft and gentle tones.
Once I had been
A lucky puppy
Now I’m a street dog
Howling for some attention.
Not so long ago,
I had it all,
Love, a family, warmth
Shelter and food.
With a blink of an eye,
Love turned cold;
The warmth became distant.
I’m a prisoner in my own back yard.
Was it something I did?
I was just being playful
Never would I hurt you on purpose,
Not even for a bit.
Yay!!!!
After almost a year,
Of being attached to some chains,
I’m finally going for a long and well deserved walk.
We’re here! We’re here!!!
But… This isn’t the park.
My leash is being removed
My owner turns around
And drives away
“Wait! Where are you going?”
In panic
I bark, I run and I whimper.
Some months have passed,
I’m mere skin and bones
My fur once so shiny
Today lacks of soft and gentle tones.
Once I had been
A lucky puppy
Now I’m a street dog
Howling for some attention.
Shattering Intrusion
Nothing could’ve prepared
The event too abrupt
Scarred forever and vandalized.
Merely a teenager
The “time” of youth
Suddenly taken away.
Told to keep quiet
And not to cry
What other options were left?
Left with an unwanted gift
Threatened to kill it or be homeless.
You became a nomad by force.
What courage to face
Everyone turned against you
But you never backed down.
Nine months passed
A little girl came to the world
A miracle you chose to love unconditionally.
Nothing could’ve prepared
The event too abrupt
Scarred forever and vandalized.
Merely a teenager
The “time” of youth
Suddenly taken away.
Told to keep quiet
And not to cry
What other options were left?
Left with an unwanted gift
Threatened to kill it or be homeless.
You became a nomad by force.
What courage to face
Everyone turned against you
But you never backed down.
Nine months passed
A little girl came to the world
A miracle you chose to love unconditionally.
Don't Float Away
You said the sky
is bigger
I cried ten times
but I'm with you
if you float
please hold on
as I know
we're not done .
Universal
and orbital
these verses
are from my soul
immersed in
forevers gone
please help us , god
or time has won .
My mind oscillates
I'm blind
as I evaporate
this unkind
coil in fate
just unwind
and give us a break .
There's a lot
to be done
forget me not
I am the sun
together tuned
always in tone
you are my moon
we'll die as one .
You said the sky
is bigger
I cried ten times
but I'm with you
if you float
please hold on
as I know
we're not done .
Universal
and orbital
these verses
are from my soul
immersed in
forevers gone
please help us , god
or time has won .
My mind oscillates
I'm blind
as I evaporate
this unkind
coil in fate
just unwind
and give us a break .
There's a lot
to be done
forget me not
I am the sun
together tuned
always in tone
you are my moon
we'll die as one .
Bring Her Home
Bring her home
please
she's my baby girl
I plead
she belongs with me
this is wrong
don't you see .
Her bike lies outside
my pain it hikes
to an all time high ,
I see her pink hair brush
low can't sink , as it's way to much
bring her home please
my worlds on hold
in the cold , of freeze .
The days , the nights
I strain my pain for life ,
memories swirl
my mind , my baby girl ,
shadows of her face
I try so hard to trace ,
devastation seems
to me , to be so lame ,
I try to call her
I'm ignored
I go insane
I'm her mother , her father
in her life of everyday ,
if this goes much further
I'll die now anyday ,
does this mean nothing to you
as you , do turn away .
Stab me to death
and tear my soul apart
crush my chest
run me over in your car ,
for that is best
than this hole
right through my heart ,
I'm the walking dead
in this land of oh so far .
My energy drains away ,
like a ghost in long gone days
my eyes are now in flames
her voice , my mind does play ,
I stare at all her games
they glare like razor blades
bring my J.J home
to god I do so pray ,
Her brothers and I
are so now zombified ,
we cuddle and cry
and they , just don't know why .
For christs sake
oh why , is it I you hate
for she's only nine
it's not her choice to make .
Bring her home
please
she's my baby girl
I plead
she belongs with me
this is wrong
don't you see .
Her bike lies outside
my pain it hikes
to an all time high ,
I see her pink hair brush
low can't sink , as it's way to much
bring her home please
my worlds on hold
in the cold , of freeze .
The days , the nights
I strain my pain for life ,
memories swirl
my mind , my baby girl ,
shadows of her face
I try so hard to trace ,
devastation seems
to me , to be so lame ,
I try to call her
I'm ignored
I go insane
I'm her mother , her father
in her life of everyday ,
if this goes much further
I'll die now anyday ,
does this mean nothing to you
as you , do turn away .
Stab me to death
and tear my soul apart
crush my chest
run me over in your car ,
for that is best
than this hole
right through my heart ,
I'm the walking dead
in this land of oh so far .
My energy drains away ,
like a ghost in long gone days
my eyes are now in flames
her voice , my mind does play ,
I stare at all her games
they glare like razor blades
bring my J.J home
to god I do so pray ,
Her brothers and I
are so now zombified ,
we cuddle and cry
and they , just don't know why .
For christs sake
oh why , is it I you hate
for she's only nine
it's not her choice to make .
Outside The Light
You tore out the air
which supplied my heart
then you left me there
to slowly fall apart ,
saturday lies
even week nights
you'd look in my eyes
outside the light
Remembering , wandering
the back streets of our years
my everything , squandering
a reduction to tears .
You turned to cast
like a hollow thing
I burned to ash
in a molten ring
the kids did ask
for you to bring
yourself back home
to hope we'd cling .
Off the wall
so desperately
I did so fall ,
descent , gravity
down I went painfully
to cracked cement , a cavity
you walked , hell bent
away from me
how could you dent
our family
these babies were sent
from the heavens to me
how could you have spent
what comes for free .
You tore out the air
which supplied my heart
then you left me there
to slowly fall apart ,
saturday lies
even week nights
you'd look in my eyes
outside the light
Remembering , wandering
the back streets of our years
my everything , squandering
a reduction to tears .
You turned to cast
like a hollow thing
I burned to ash
in a molten ring
the kids did ask
for you to bring
yourself back home
to hope we'd cling .
Off the wall
so desperately
I did so fall ,
descent , gravity
down I went painfully
to cracked cement , a cavity
you walked , hell bent
away from me
how could you dent
our family
these babies were sent
from the heavens to me
how could you have spent
what comes for free .
Idle in June...
She dares not let the world hear her speak,
She's getting thin and looking meek,
A grey hair is splitting in her widows peak
She lays idle in the month of June.
Her hands are cracked and stained from mud,
although she bathes in lathered suds
There's a little of me inside her blood
She lays idle in the month of June
She carries child at her old age,
She's stuck inside her fleshy cage,
Her father birthed her insidious rage
She lays idle in the month of June.
They locked her in a cell up high,
The crime of seeking suicide
Some women they are born only to die,
She lays idle in the month of June.
One day, I know, I'll see her soon,
How I loathe the month of June,
We'll met again come the next new moon,
I won't forget her, idle in the month of June.
She dares not let the world hear her speak,
She's getting thin and looking meek,
A grey hair is splitting in her widows peak
She lays idle in the month of June.
Her hands are cracked and stained from mud,
although she bathes in lathered suds
There's a little of me inside her blood
She lays idle in the month of June
She carries child at her old age,
She's stuck inside her fleshy cage,
Her father birthed her insidious rage
She lays idle in the month of June.
They locked her in a cell up high,
The crime of seeking suicide
Some women they are born only to die,
She lays idle in the month of June.
One day, I know, I'll see her soon,
How I loathe the month of June,
We'll met again come the next new moon,
I won't forget her, idle in the month of June.
Goodbye
So hard to face this
Is this what we've become?
What have we done?
You let go of my hands
For the first time
The last time.....
I drift out to sea
And away from you for eternity
The waves pull me in many directions
I wish I knew how to feel once more
To love again
But your hammer smashed my little heart, and I can't find all the pieces
I wish I could find the words to say
Why did you leave me this way?
I look at our painting on the wall
Why did you let me fall?
You knew I was afraid of heights, and your love filled me and lifted me
Then you just walked away while I was in mid air
I wish I could see you again
And show you the remaining pieces
I know you wouldn't care
II would shove the glass down your throat and leave you there
So hard to face this
Is this what we've become?
What have we done?
You let go of my hands
For the first time
The last time.....
I drift out to sea
And away from you for eternity
The waves pull me in many directions
I wish I knew how to feel once more
To love again
But your hammer smashed my little heart, and I can't find all the pieces
I wish I could find the words to say
Why did you leave me this way?
I look at our painting on the wall
Why did you let me fall?
You knew I was afraid of heights, and your love filled me and lifted me
Then you just walked away while I was in mid air
I wish I could see you again
And show you the remaining pieces
I know you wouldn't care
II would shove the glass down your throat and leave you there
Unspoken Whispers
When I say “I love you” I hesitate but say it anyway,
Because you are supposed to be the man of my life
But somehow with each passing day the hesitation fades away.
You expect too much from me,
It’s the way it goes you assume
I no longer will accept
Your image of what I’m supposed to be.
Forgive my cold heart
But you turned me insecure
And I’ve been walking far too long in the dark.
How can you really expect me to call you father
When you never listen to my anecdotes
Me, your very own daughter?
You always place yourself first
While we sit and watch
Don’t you understand that
For your love we thirst?
Let’s move on while time is on our side
I wished I could’ve you told you this in person
But your mind so narrow
Has made you too oblivious and blind.
2010/1/17
When I say “I love you” I hesitate but say it anyway,
Because you are supposed to be the man of my life
But somehow with each passing day the hesitation fades away.
You expect too much from me,
It’s the way it goes you assume
I no longer will accept
Your image of what I’m supposed to be.
Forgive my cold heart
But you turned me insecure
And I’ve been walking far too long in the dark.
How can you really expect me to call you father
When you never listen to my anecdotes
Me, your very own daughter?
You always place yourself first
While we sit and watch
Don’t you understand that
For your love we thirst?
Let’s move on while time is on our side
I wished I could’ve you told you this in person
But your mind so narrow
Has made you too oblivious and blind.
2010/1/17
Cry your heart out
Dear son, as you know
your mom has died not long ago.
She was too weak to win the fight,
she tried so long, but still she died.
Dear son, I know your many tears,
I cried them too, I know your fears.
I also have sat in my room
alone in solitude and gloom.
Dear son, I see the darkness in your heart,
the thought of knowing that we have to part
the thought of knowing that the time will come,
the pain you feel have thousands felt, my son.
Dear son, just cry your heart out, don't feel shame.
Every other human on this planet does the same.
As your mom told you before she left this place.
"Just take your time in life, this ain't no race."
Dear son, as you know
your mom has died not long ago.
She was too weak to win the fight,
she tried so long, but still she died.
Dear son, I know your many tears,
I cried them too, I know your fears.
I also have sat in my room
alone in solitude and gloom.
Dear son, I see the darkness in your heart,
the thought of knowing that we have to part
the thought of knowing that the time will come,
the pain you feel have thousands felt, my son.
Dear son, just cry your heart out, don't feel shame.
Every other human on this planet does the same.
As your mom told you before she left this place.
"Just take your time in life, this ain't no race."
Coming Home
Tears are flowing like a river
as I slowly drive along.
Roadside flowers start to wither
as I finally come home.
Not a curve on this barren road,
years went by and I grew old.
If you'd show my past self to me
I'd hardly recognize, I'd hardly see.
The young couple who had left this house
is coming home, but not the spouse.
As everything I left, is still here,
I once again do miss you, Dear.
I want the memories to never fade,
I want to live inside them. I can not wait
to come to you, hold you tight.
A curve approaches as I say goodnight.
Tears are flowing like a river
as I slowly drive along.
Roadside flowers start to wither
as I finally come home.
Not a curve on this barren road,
years went by and I grew old.
If you'd show my past self to me
I'd hardly recognize, I'd hardly see.
The young couple who had left this house
is coming home, but not the spouse.
As everything I left, is still here,
I once again do miss you, Dear.
I want the memories to never fade,
I want to live inside them. I can not wait
to come to you, hold you tight.
A curve approaches as I say goodnight.
Don't Ever Leave Me
Why do you make me love you like this?
You got my heart clenched tight in your fist
Now that you got it don't ever let it go
Because the love I exhibit is not for show
It's for my appreciation for you
And all the little things you manage to do
To keep me content you're always looking out
For my best interest there never was a doubt
Well at first there was but not anymore
Because I've been hurt too many times before
But today's a new day everyday we're together
It seems that way through any type of weather
Not rain, not sleet, not snow could stop us
From loving each other just remember God got us
And He'll make sure that we have longevity
And hopefully our love will never be in jeopardy
I know we can make it, it's far from impossible
I believe we're strong enough to overcome any obstacle
That awaits us in the future but let's focus on now
I can't live without you I just don't know how
And I don't want to know how I just want you with me
This is the way that love should be
Thank you baby
Why do you make me love you like this?
You got my heart clenched tight in your fist
Now that you got it don't ever let it go
Because the love I exhibit is not for show
It's for my appreciation for you
And all the little things you manage to do
To keep me content you're always looking out
For my best interest there never was a doubt
Well at first there was but not anymore
Because I've been hurt too many times before
But today's a new day everyday we're together
It seems that way through any type of weather
Not rain, not sleet, not snow could stop us
From loving each other just remember God got us
And He'll make sure that we have longevity
And hopefully our love will never be in jeopardy
I know we can make it, it's far from impossible
I believe we're strong enough to overcome any obstacle
That awaits us in the future but let's focus on now
I can't live without you I just don't know how
And I don't want to know how I just want you with me
This is the way that love should be
Thank you baby
Oblivious
I didn't know how was I supposed to know?
How could a person like me be so slow?
The perscription bottles that filled up the shelf
I would've known if I wasn't thinking about myself
Your physique was getting slimmer
Your face was looking thinner
Your skin looked so pale like snow in the winter
But still I ignored all the signs that were shown
The day you confirmed it my mind was blown
Your health got no better it only gotten worse
I guess I didn't want to know the truth because it hurts
Your appearance wasn't the same it looked kind of messy
You didn't want to tell me because you wanted to protect me
You didn't want to tell me I respect your bravery
But I would've died trying to free you from your slavery
You're bonded by meds and doctor appointments
Hating myself because I couldn't pinpoint it
Never got a chance to give you some support
I didn't pay attention or gave it any thought
I knew you was sick I didn't think it was severe
It didn't become clear until later that year
November 27th of 2007
You've changed your address now you reside in heaven
God called you home and he took you from me
I guess it was time you stopped suffering from HIV
I didn't know how was I supposed to know?
How could a person like me be so slow?
The perscription bottles that filled up the shelf
I would've known if I wasn't thinking about myself
Your physique was getting slimmer
Your face was looking thinner
Your skin looked so pale like snow in the winter
But still I ignored all the signs that were shown
The day you confirmed it my mind was blown
Your health got no better it only gotten worse
I guess I didn't want to know the truth because it hurts
Your appearance wasn't the same it looked kind of messy
You didn't want to tell me because you wanted to protect me
You didn't want to tell me I respect your bravery
But I would've died trying to free you from your slavery
You're bonded by meds and doctor appointments
Hating myself because I couldn't pinpoint it
Never got a chance to give you some support
I didn't pay attention or gave it any thought
I knew you was sick I didn't think it was severe
It didn't become clear until later that year
November 27th of 2007
You've changed your address now you reside in heaven
God called you home and he took you from me
I guess it was time you stopped suffering from HIV
Anonymous
children of mine
when youre avoiding my eyes
as we are saying our goodbyes
daddies dont cry
as you cut me down to size
everything within me dies
daddies dont cry
you cant always believe the lies
that hurt melts away in time
daddies dont cry
its as much as i can take
to see your little heart break
daddies dont cry
i wont forcefeed the white lie
that its going to be alright
daddies dont cry
ill take the blame that applies
i can see your pain arise
daddies dont cry
just remember that youre mine
we will rise above and shine
daddies dont cry
it is a feeling i cant shake
when i watch your little heart break
i won?t cry daddies dont cry
tears run dry daddies dont cry
the reasons we find
arent very kind
in my childrens eyes
your daddy cant
wont cry
your daddy wont
doesnt cry
when youre avoiding my eyes
as we are saying our goodbyes
daddies dont cry
as you cut me down to size
everything within me dies
daddies dont cry
you cant always believe the lies
that hurt melts away in time
daddies dont cry
its as much as i can take
to see your little heart break
daddies dont cry
i wont forcefeed the white lie
that its going to be alright
daddies dont cry
ill take the blame that applies
i can see your pain arise
daddies dont cry
just remember that youre mine
we will rise above and shine
daddies dont cry
it is a feeling i cant shake
when i watch your little heart break
i won?t cry daddies dont cry
tears run dry daddies dont cry
the reasons we find
arent very kind
in my childrens eyes
your daddy cant
wont cry
your daddy wont
doesnt cry
