Suicide

The wall and the rubble
could never agree
on anything other than doing it together
and falling from heights
to the lights
of Berlin,
a suicide of sorts
to end all suicides
or homicides
in the masses.
Yet the wall and the rubble
were never thought about
in the Jesus-like sacrifice to save
their small world.

                   Letter of Goodbye



I've loved you for as long as I can remember
Now my heart is broken and tender
You've been my lover and my husband but above all my best friend
I cant believe this is how it ends
For so long you've held they key to my heart
Now we're falling apart
As our relationship slowly dies
I'm already dead on the inside
I've heard love is an art that can't be mastered
And like our relationship, it always ends in disaster
My heart's been broken for the last time
Now it's time to say goodbye to you and this prison in which I reside
Tonight I'm going home
But I'm wondering if you'll even miss me when I'm gone
Whether my home is Heaven or Hell
I leave behind no story for you to tell
I have nothing left to offer and nothing left to gain
I've found a way to finally ease my pain
You broke my heart this one last time
So this is my letter to you saying "I love you and goodbye"

She thought she was dead
Alone, as she bled
the razor still in hand
what seemed a good plan.
Waking in a room
that must've been cleaned soon
the smell of bleach burns her eyes
atleast thats her excuse for why she cries.
They say she needs sedation
but she was trying to escape the medication
another dose it seems
its like shes living the same dream.
It's like they'll never understand
even with the razor found in hand
she would rather lay down and die
than to entertain getting high.
So she rips out the stitches
leaves a note with a laugh, "this will teach you bitches"
she runs to lock the door
as blood begins flowing to the floor.
Abreast with her disease
seems death the only way to stay clean.

Market Corpse


I have begun my walk
to the black market of silent mourning
where demons feast upon untamed flesh
and unbidden souls break their sorrows
with angry regret, against the empty canvas of night.

I wish to buy my way through
to a stillness that cannot be bought in this life…

I have searched,
wasted many skins
and came up thin…

Thinner than I was before…

But my walk will come to an end
when I find what I’m looking for
at the right price…

As the grave calls my name
I will gladly end my pain
and be swept away.

Two coins for my eyes
and one for you, my death…

if i die then there it is.. my fate was ment to be
im scared as shit to face the end but what has begun must be
motivation was the tears of the loved ones that i hurt
ive killed love so many times that there isnt much to my worth
i really hate my life but it sucks to give it up
i break promises and lack  purpose....enough is enough
i could sit here and play with words if it was just another day
but today ive made the choice to die and take there pain away.....

Congratulations  Tashi