FRIEND ZONE

Its been almost three suns,
two book spines,
and an unresponded text,
since last time we spoke.
You were in China
and you came back with a dragon on your skin.

How do you say in chinese: I love you.
Nevermind. The feelings I hold are too lame, and too late.

Maybe its me.
I waited till lockdown to spill the content of my heart

All the understanding, the concernes and future fears
The facades, and the prosthetic ears

I speak in my plastic cup
And you came and cut the string
While you hide secrets under your skirt

Seeing you in the sink, through the garbage disposal
Seeing you through glasses, tinted in pink
Am I missing you, or someone, or something in me?
Am I messing with someone? And is it me?

Eyes that live by dichotomy
Die by the blade, Chien Andalou.
Am I missing the point in here?

For the love of delusion
I kept this object a secret and I called it A (...)

I am letting this blotch of rainbow
melt in memory

Its you, and me
Now, we are just fantasies
No texts, and no numbers
to dial our way back home

How do you say "Good bye" in Japanese?

Time has passed
We’ve both changed
From what, where, why and when

There’s no way it could ever be
What it would’ve been, back then

We’re two different people
From those kids we knew
Even though we resemble them

There’s no way it could ever be
What it would’ve been, back then

It was a missed opportunity of yesteryear
When we labeled each other as,
Just a friend

There’s no way it could ever be
What it would’ve been, back then

We both have different lives
Other lovers and children on which we,
They depend

There’s no way it could ever be
What it would’ve been, back then

To betray them all
To see what we missed
To me, would be a sin

There’s no way it could ever be
What it would’ve been, back then

You were a special girl
My teenage mind
Pedelstilized as the perfect girlfriend

There’s no way it could ever be
What it would’ve been, back then

So it was good to see you
I’m glad you’re doing well
But this interaction must be the End

There’s no way it could ever be
What it would’ve been, back then

I should leave you as a fantasy
And my imagination could
Always pretend

There’s no way it could ever be
What it would’ve been, back then

Because Post Nut Clarity is real
And the sex was Mid
And I don’t want to ever see you AGAIN!

      “My home girl called me today saying pray for me
Because balloons of cocaine erupted in her pussy,
      “Crying about being stupid and should not have taken the flight
And the doctor’s saying she might not survive the night,

      “I told her she was a motherfuckin ass fool
Being someone’s international pack mule,
      “The only thing she should’ve been packing was clothes or dick
And if she make it-bitch you need to quit,

      “I told her I was on my way, because she will always be my friend
And if shit turns tragic-I will be there with her in the end,
      “I decided not to call her mom, she can burn in hell
The trifling ass bitch abandoned her when she was twelve,

      “Ten years later I’ve been her protector and provider
This failure on my part set my soul on fire,
      “I know it was her choice and a personal responsibility
But the shit was like stage four cancer eating inside of me,

      “The last time I saw her the situation ended real ugly
Because I found out she lied about her pregnancy,
      “Not only to me, but also the baby daddy
And when she got an abortion his ass was not happy,

      “In a cold-blooded way I told her to slow her ass down
The response I got was fuck you CS and her leaving town,
      “That harsh memory was several years ago
As I pulled up in the hospital parking lot real slow,

      “Arriving at her room she was half-sleep watching TV
And instantly start crying when she noticed me,
      “Her first words was ‘I’m sorry’ as I kissed her on the forehead
While she scooted over so I could sit on the side of the bed,

      “For hours we talked, cussed and joked-having a good old time
Until our stomachs hurt from laughter and we both were crying,
      “Then looking into her eyes I watched them lose that shine
As the silence was penetrated by the sound of her EKG flatline”.

Navigating the new and ancient friend zone.
Piloting through skies with flying drones.
Lost in the intrigues of a drama of thrones.
Deflecting the impact of sticks and stones.

Remembering the friends, here and gone,
their laughter echoes, lives like dawn.
In these realms of heart and fantasy
w chart our paths, uniquely our own.

With courage to face what may come
and the strength to turn the unknown into home.
The bonds we share, forever strong.
In our hearts, they forever belong.