Passing it along

 

Before the darkness of the sky grows light
And things in shadows come into sight.
Under your pillow you’ll see.
And for a second think of me.
And feel what I am feeling this last night.

A sprinkle of magic and money so small.
I have come because of your special call.
But your last gift of growing.
And your replacing dreams for knowing.
You can’t help it your older and that is all.

Oh small and beautiful one as you.
To see all things around as new.
The true world is not what it may seem.
Sadly its magic will disappear like a dream.
Your wishes will change and your interests will too.

My spirit is happy as well as sad.
For I think of all the times we have had.
As you mature you’ll move on.
In that way I’ll be gone.
But in the order of things it’s not so bad.

The time has come for you to face what is real.
But before I leave a small tooth I must steal.
It will soon be day.
So I must be on my way.
Vanishing like a ghost leaving only your heart to feel.

As the day comes to an end and here I am wondering through the deepness of my mind as I reflect upon the many stages and moments within my life 60 years of it, for it has been truly an journey and travel and walk with each step I took it took me to an different image of myself, giving me an inside look of what my future will be cause of what it has become if I don't change for the betterment of my own life.                                                                      
                                                                                                                                        
                                                                                                                                       But not withstanding nor ever not misunderstanding the choices I've made along the crossroads of my life for by far it was never perfect as in the family life, in fact it was imperfect with so many flaws and imperfections filled with mental and physical abuse at the hands of a man not my father as my mother stood by and said and did nothing but watch her child get beat down.                                                        
                                                                                                                                  
                                                                                                                                  But one day I told him the beatings kicks and fist marks is gonna stop so that day came when I had enough and I fought back with a knife cutting him ever place I could and can which cost me three to five, but even after all of that at times I don't even know how I made it this far within my life from running in the streets, getting that street life education chasing that paper to doing time in prison for things that I knew were wrong but yet at an early age I had to grow up before my time.                                                                
                                                                                                                                  
                                                                                                                                  But I regret nothing of my past life for we all will have to go through somethings to get a better understanding of what real life is truly all about through your own eyes, so let me give you a deeper look into my life journey for I've been shot and I've been slab I've even been left to die in the streets because of the life I was living on the edge with my last breath, for I've been in the military in the times of war not even knowing if I will make it back home alive or come back home in a black bag with my army tags around my neck cause war is big money for the government.                                                
                                                                                                                                  
                                                                                                                                  
For I survived an spinal infusion that left me unable to walk for three years and if that wasn't enough I had an heart attack giving me a stent implant in my RCA and to top all that off, there's an chance I have prostate cancer not that I'm looking for pity no don't get it twisted for I am just giving you an inside look at what life can and will bring your way to slow you down and living in the fast lane of life for bottom line you only got one life to truly live.