crush

 
in the craving dark, I weep
no tears will you receive from me
aching with regret  
my heart is easy to forget
you torment me with talks of love
but simple kindness from you is out of my reach
 
internal lament I gave you my love
you pushed me away
making it clear you no longer wanted me
 
trust broken I thought you were my friend
you didn't just backstab me you did it to my face
quietly when no one is listening you unleash your cruelty

spitting out I hate you
and I'll I ever did wrong was love you
living in the shadow of regret
 
wishing we had never met
my heart is pure of spirit
you laugh at my pain like I'm nothing
 
if I show any hurt
you're quick with you're crazy
it's true, I crack under pressure
you use that to your advantage
 
raping my soul of feeling
so you could feed your whore my suffering
when you are alone and have nothing left to gorge on
who will treat your brokenheartedness
 
you moved on without telling me
after twenty-eight years I thought I deserved better
if your heart had left mine
why did you string me along
 
making me hope then crushing it