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Four Walls

Sometimes when you�re away from reality so long
You tend to forget what is real

I need to take this gun out of my mouth
My head feels like I�m not even here
Somewhere between earth and hell
The drugs make me feel alive
But only for a short time
Thinking I should tell my friends
What�s exactly going on in my head
They probably would claim I�m crazy
Hell, I�m not really sure myself

Lead me to the water
Or hand me over to the devil
Take me up to the sky
See if god can save my rotting soul
But whatever you do
Don�t leave me alone in these four walls
Four walls!
These four walls

Wrist cut
Crippled on the floor
No longer a slave
But no longer worth saving
A danger to myself
What�s going on with my body?
It just doesn�t work
Feeling like a zombie
Is this real life?
Always in a daze
Doing the same old thing
Sex makes me feel loved
But only for a moment

Lead me to the water
Or hand me over to the devil
Take me up to the sky
See if god can save my rotting soul
But whatever you do
Don�t leave me alone in these four walls
Four walls!
These four walls

Doctors tell me
What they think I need
Maybe if I could see an ounce of care in their eyes
I would have something to believe in

Growing tired of making excuses
For what I know is really wrong
Not smart enough to fix my own mind
Like a piece of me has been removed
Half dead with demons reaching
Dragging me into the darkness again and again
Sometimes wish they would just kill me
But there�s still a part of me that wants to fight them off
For what?... I don�t even know