I Guess This is Farewell

I’m sorry I hurt you,
I’m sorry I couldn’t trust you,
I’m sorry that I ended thIngs the way I did.
I didn’t want to hurt you,
But staying with you,
Would just Mean that I would break you,
Like how I’m broken.
I waS always scared that yOu would hurt me,
I was always scaRed that you weRe using me,
Terrified that I’d walk awaY scarreD.
You cAn blame my previous relatioNships,
For how cold I was to you.
How distant I was.
I couldn’t risk being hurt again.

I didn’t want to hurt you,
I didn’t mean to hurt you.
I just couldn’t stay with you any longer.
School kept me busy,
I had no time to talk to you,
I was depressed,
I shouldn’t have been depressed.
I should’ve been happy.
You could’ve made me happy,
If I wasn’t so scarred,
Broken,
Damaged.
I wish I could talk to you now,
But I’m sure you’ll ignore me again,
Like the message I sent at Christmas.
I hope you’re happy.
I hope you’re doing well.
I’m sorry I hurt you,
I guess this is farewell.