I Wish

Sometimes I wish,
That I could redo my life,
I have made several mistakes,
I hurt those that treated me well,
Only because I was hurt,
By someone I trusted,
By several people I trusted.
I can’t trust my friends,
I can’t trust my family.
I wish I could,
But I can’t.
I can only trust myself.
I wish that I was never born,
I have wasted this life,
I am just wasted space.

My body is covered in scars,
Some mental,
Some physical.
I lie to everyone I see.
“Are you okay?”
“Yes, I’m fine”
I always lie.
They can’t know the truth,
Because they’ll just hurt me.
They’ll judge me.
I don’t want to be judged.
I can’t help the way I feel,
I can’t help that I trusted the wrong people.
I’m sorry.