Fuck pretence x

The natural solution
Brings unrest to popular resolution
And I do not need to prove to them
I refuse to fucking lose to them

I am who I chose to be
I don't need you to connect with me
Happy on my own two feet
They walk on time with my heart beat

Guilt and remorse don't live in me
And I say screw you and your camaraderie

Alone I daily stick my finger up to your penalties
Because what's right for you
Isn't right for me

Pin me down
Expect me to close my eyes and not breath
Just because I don't conform to be what you believe

I am not a follower
And never have been
You follow a herd in what you think is right
and make yourself see
Things that blur your natural sight

You roam in a pack like fucking hyena
And go in for the kill with a dirty demeanour
Like a lion mating with his lioness
It's excruciatingly painful for her
And she just has to deal with it
She lives another day and hunts
With strength

To feed on what keeps her going

Because it's life's natural course
I choose to write, live and breath
And not a thing I say
is not first well thought
And the possessions I treasure most
They were not bought

I despise anything in this earth that needs to be forced
And wasn't first earned

Pitiful to see that it's difficult for you to learn

Like a leopard that loses it's baby cub
and has to eat it's corpse to grieve
I believe in the natural nature
It might hurt
But it's what is
ultimately needed

It keeps me grounded
If I cut I bleed
If I'm imperfect
It's probably my best feature
you'll see

If I'm open
Then I don't pretend
There's no need

Your money don't talk to me
Your bullshit will never walk with me
So get fucked with your vanity
I'm perfectly imperfect
With my secure insecurities

And nothing you have
Will ever temp or change me

I'm naturally me
The way I am and always have been

As you continually conform and follow them
Your blind to seeing

You will not pin my beliefs down
Have me kneeling
Fuck you
And your judgmental unfeeling
Your the master in untrue colours and concealing

You smile and nod
Whilst your two hands are stealing meaning
And I find the very concept of You
Distasteful and unappealing

One day I will laugh
As you bitch from your knees
Begging for something
That is even the smallest piece of me

And I will hear your bullshit
As you drown in it up to your neck
And then I'll turn away and walk knowing full well
That you never meant for the best

You'll never be anything like the natural me
Because I am every part earthed
And I naturally breath
Shallow
doesn't take shelter in me

And as the realisation quickly puts you to bed
And it kills you
To think
Even in the end you
Will live in pretence

And I'll give you a dollar
And die on this bet

I will let the concrete set
As I  chalk outline line
your silhouette

Ashes to ashes
With not an ounce of regret x