Submissions by Blood_Merchant93 (BeautifulManiac)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I wonder through the darkness and share some with you
SELF POEM
Published
26th Apr 2018 8:51pm
26th Apr 2018 8:51pm
Stressed
With the stress of my dissertation running alongside my other assignments
and now the unpredictable suicide of a good course mate
I feel myself tip toeing into the darkness
I was so certain and full of hope for my future
but the impact of lost life has me paralysed
and now here I am, lost in silence
We were supposed to graduate together this year
but instead we had to wrap you up for your eternal slumber
your smile will be forever etched into my heart and mind
I keep getting these urges that I have to ignore
past...
and now the unpredictable suicide of a good course mate
I feel myself tip toeing into the darkness
I was so certain and full of hope for my future
but the impact of lost life has me paralysed
and now here I am, lost in silence
We were supposed to graduate together this year
but instead we had to wrap you up for your eternal slumber
your smile will be forever etched into my heart and mind
I keep getting these urges that I have to ignore
past...
#sadness
#friendship
#death #suicide
#death #suicide
498 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
16th Apr 2018 1:17am
16th Apr 2018 1:17am
Transformation
Through the blue-green eyes of a 25 year old
I can now see my extraordinary transformation
I brush my firey tresses and smile at my reflection
Not because I'm vain and think I'm pretty
But because I'm proud of the woman I'm becoming
Once I was an abused and frail ghost in the process of fading to dust
Now I'm glowing with the colours of someone's who's loved
My journey is now a fusion of darkness and light
I know I'm stronger now and willing to fight
And even though it's been a long and a difficult task
I can now wear a...
I can now see my extraordinary transformation
I brush my firey tresses and smile at my reflection
Not because I'm vain and think I'm pretty
But because I'm proud of the woman I'm becoming
Once I was an abused and frail ghost in the process of fading to dust
Now I'm glowing with the colours of someone's who's loved
My journey is now a fusion of darkness and light
I know I'm stronger now and willing to fight
And even though it's been a long and a difficult task
I can now wear a...
#strength
#hope
#abuse
#MentalHealth
#SelfReflection
838 reads
6 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
15th Apr 2018 8:28pm
15th Apr 2018 8:28pm
Untitled
#dark
#abuse
#MentalHealth
596 reads
3 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
14th Apr 2018 6:35pm
14th Apr 2018 6:35pm
Escape with Death
#abuse
#death
663 reads
4 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
14th Apr 2018 11:29am
14th Apr 2018 11:29am
Friend
Dear the darkness within me
you're my only friend
my oldest friend
the only one
who stays
Although you continue to leach my soul
I appreciate the companionship you give to me
you open my eyes to unpleasant truths
and shield me from those who could harm me
Even when I see a glimmer of light
you quickly smother me into place
until my breathing becomes shallow
and I slip
into
stillness
Dear the darkness within me
you're still my only friend ...
you're my only friend
my oldest friend
the only one
who stays
Although you continue to leach my soul
I appreciate the companionship you give to me
you open my eyes to unpleasant truths
and shield me from those who could harm me
Even when I see a glimmer of light
you quickly smother me into place
until my breathing becomes shallow
and I slip
into
stillness
Dear the darkness within me
you're still my only friend ...
#anxiety
#depression
#dark
#death
#MentalHealth
544 reads
2 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
14th Apr 2018 1:23am
14th Apr 2018 1:23am
Unravelling
I'm holding my breath
the darkness is an infection
cutting the blood from my body
I can finally see my reflection
It's breaking me
It's consuming me
this world was created
through someone else's nightmare
unravel the truth
I'm beyond repair
It's breaking me
It's consuming me
I sit here paralysed
I'm not the person I used to be
the ghostly shape of my heart still beats
but barely
It's breaking me
It's consuming me
please close your eyes ...
the darkness is an infection
cutting the blood from my body
I can finally see my reflection
It's breaking me
It's consuming me
this world was created
through someone else's nightmare
unravel the truth
I'm beyond repair
It's breaking me
It's consuming me
I sit here paralysed
I'm not the person I used to be
the ghostly shape of my heart still beats
but barely
It's breaking me
It's consuming me
please close your eyes ...
#MentalHealth
635 reads
3 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
18th Jan 2017 2:01am
18th Jan 2017 2:01am
Dementia Grief
2 years to this day since I got a crushing hug from my crying mother.
I woke up to find out that dementia had taken you from us.
3 days after my birthday.
A week before my birthday I had gone to see you for what I thought would be the last time.
And I was correct.
What I wasn't expecting was a blank expression upon your face as you failed to recognise my existence in your life.
"It's a beautiful day isn't it?" You kept saying as you looked out of the window from the chair you were slumped in.
I just smiled and nodded my head in agreement. Not...
I woke up to find out that dementia had taken you from us.
3 days after my birthday.
A week before my birthday I had gone to see you for what I thought would be the last time.
And I was correct.
What I wasn't expecting was a blank expression upon your face as you failed to recognise my existence in your life.
"It's a beautiful day isn't it?" You kept saying as you looked out of the window from the chair you were slumped in.
I just smiled and nodded my head in agreement. Not...
656 reads
2 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
12th Nov 2016 5:43pm
12th Nov 2016 5:43pm
Stuck
My sense of reality has been asleep for some time now,
fear follows me closely as if it were my shadow.
I can almost see the door I need to escape through,
but it seems I've lost the key along the way.
fear follows me closely as if it were my shadow.
I can almost see the door I need to escape through,
but it seems I've lost the key along the way.
691 reads
0 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
30th Jun 2016 9:32am
30th Jun 2016 9:32am
Garden (Tanka Style Poem)
Dew sprinkled flowers
blooming in the suns bright smile,
a shade gathers near.
There's a bird in the garden,
and it's on the hunt for worms.
blooming in the suns bright smile,
a shade gathers near.
There's a bird in the garden,
and it's on the hunt for worms.
540 reads
0 Comments
UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
26th May 2016 2:59pm
26th May 2016 2:59pm
The Feeling of Feeling Unburdened
What are these bursts of emotions I'm feeling?
Dancing around my mind to an upbeat tune.
I smile happily for the first time in a long time; feeling unburdened, feeling pure joy.
I ruffle my vibrant auburn hair and release a scream of success.
Shooting my fists into the warm breeze of spring and jumping around like a happy child.
I feel. Happy.
The sun burns my fair freckled skin and my blue-green eyes try to shy away from the rays.
I shake off the sun and keep smiling as the moon beams into the night.
The thoughts that were once muddled no longer...
Dancing around my mind to an upbeat tune.
I smile happily for the first time in a long time; feeling unburdened, feeling pure joy.
I ruffle my vibrant auburn hair and release a scream of success.
Shooting my fists into the warm breeze of spring and jumping around like a happy child.
I feel. Happy.
The sun burns my fair freckled skin and my blue-green eyes try to shy away from the rays.
I shake off the sun and keep smiling as the moon beams into the night.
The thoughts that were once muddled no longer...
714 reads
2 Comments
EROTIC POEM
Published
18th May 2016 9:44am
18th May 2016 9:44am
Demon Whore
#dark
#erotic
#abuse
1183 reads
5 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
14th May 2016 1:23am
14th May 2016 1:23am
I Will Help You Fight Your Demons
I spot the faint scars carefully placed over your freckles fore arms
I see the sadness in your tired eyes whenever you laugh at a joke
I empathise fully with the demons you struggle to battle with everyday
I can see how utterly exhausted you are with your life
I want you to know that I can carefully guide you out of the darkness
I need you to trust my wisdom as I carry your burdens with mine
I long for you to smile with your eyes and feel truly happy
I will risk my sanity to save you from insanity
I see the sadness in your tired eyes whenever you laugh at a joke
I empathise fully with the demons you struggle to battle with everyday
I can see how utterly exhausted you are with your life
I want you to know that I can carefully guide you out of the darkness
I need you to trust my wisdom as I carry your burdens with mine
I long for you to smile with your eyes and feel truly happy
I will risk my sanity to save you from insanity
765 reads
4 Comments
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