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I am nineteen.
Crazy, insane, outlandish.
The biggest nerd.
A former cheerleader.
They dont really mix well.
A tomboy.
Mud-lovin' daughter of a mechanics man.
I write to get the feelings out.
The feelings i supress to make it through.
Music. Is. Everything.
I'll sing til your ears bleed.
I'll dance til my legs give out.
I'll give you my  best fake smile.
Panic attacks control my life.
Stress is neverending.
I have a million friends.
They've called me a social butterfly,
They've called me popular.
They are wrong.
Like i said,
I do what i gotta do to get through.
I sabotage every relationship.
I trust no one,
Not even myself.
Your average teenage girl,
Right?