Duende
Poem Published
25th Mar 2025 2:00pm
25th Mar 2025 2:00pm
Dead Inside
to say i'm utterly
devastated is an
understatement
i feel crushed
The day after
i saw our home
will be closing
its doors i was
told Two of my
supportworkers
will have to stop
due to protocols
and regulations
the government
who Wants more
money & power
they always do
it means i'll lose
3/4 of my support
system including
the deep site my
lifeline & you guys
everything familiar
feels like i'm walking
on...
devastated is an
understatement
i feel crushed
The day after
i saw our home
will be closing
its doors i was
told Two of my
supportworkers
will have to stop
due to protocols
and regulations
the government
who Wants more
money & power
they always do
it means i'll lose
3/4 of my support
system including
the deep site my
lifeline & you guys
everything familiar
feels like i'm walking
on...
#dark
#depression
193 reads
20 Comments
Betty
Poem Published
14th Mar 2025 2:24am
14th Mar 2025 2:24am
Down bad enough to ice the red wine
I’m on the floor
half drunk at noon
Merlot
with ice
A sin in wine world,
but it’s hot.
I want a cold drink.
Wine works
best for heartache.
Something about the way I
want to die after too much,
and how that feeling lingers…
yeah, that resonates
in my
stale bones
today.
I want to roll around in
my own shit,
my back against the
kitchen island
as my cat nudges my hand
I have a half full
bottle and an
empty heart
again
...
half drunk at noon
Merlot
with ice
A sin in wine world,
but it’s hot.
I want a cold drink.
Wine works
best for heartache.
Something about the way I
want to die after too much,
and how that feeling lingers…
yeah, that resonates
in my
stale bones
today.
I want to roll around in
my own shit,
my back against the
kitchen island
as my cat nudges my hand
I have a half full
bottle and an
empty heart
again
...
#breakup
#depression
#heartbroken #obsession
#heartbroken #obsession
191 reads
20 Comments
Duende
Poem Published
13th Mar 2025 2:00pm
13th Mar 2025 2:00pm
Lost Hope
it's cold in here
dark & desolate
worn out inside
i can't seem to
revive my drive
Life lost its glow
i look at the pills
the rope & note
an easy way to
end the torture
the ache inside
and i, am ready
3 A.M. somehow
something led me
to YouTube and to
Archive's concert
& i like to believe
it was meant to be
Archive found me
brought me hope
& the zest to stay
saved me from the
edge of foreverness
...
dark & desolate
worn out inside
i can't seem to
revive my drive
Life lost its glow
i look at the pills
the rope & note
an easy way to
end the torture
the ache inside
and i, am ready
3 A.M. somehow
something led me
to YouTube and to
Archive's concert
& i like to believe
it was meant to be
Archive found me
brought me hope
& the zest to stay
saved me from the
edge of foreverness
...
#depression
#suicide
200 reads
Indie
Miss Indie
Miss Indie
Poem Published
3rd Apr 2025 00:37am
3rd Apr 2025 00:37am
no, Google, I'm not suicidal
I googled
"what to do
when you've given up
on life"
and it gave me a list
of suicide hotlines
and articles on positive
mental health practices
I didn't know how
to explain to a search engine
that I'm not suicidal
I'm not looking for that kind of exit
I'm lost
I'm lonely
I'm aimless
Everything feels pointless
I've hit the edge of depression
and kept going into the abyss
instead of pulling back
like I was supposed to
I scroll through the...
"what to do
when you've given up
on life"
and it gave me a list
of suicide hotlines
and articles on positive
mental health practices
I didn't know how
to explain to a search engine
that I'm not suicidal
I'm not looking for that kind of exit
I'm lost
I'm lonely
I'm aimless
Everything feels pointless
I've hit the edge of depression
and kept going into the abyss
instead of pulling back
like I was supposed to
I scroll through the...
#depression
#despair
#emptiness #MentalHealth
#emptiness #MentalHealth
74 reads
14 Comments
Ambjr
Poem Published
10th Mar 2025 3:44pm
10th Mar 2025 3:44pm
if you can’t stand then f**kin crawl
you hate this pathetic display
this disgustin weakness in yourself
yet here you are
soakin in your own misery
you worthless pile of flesh
is this what we’re doin?
get the fuck up
remember that hell knows your name
you’ve danced with demons
walked thru the god damn flames
and you’re cryin over…what?
this?
fuckin laughable
no one’s comin to save you
no one gives a damn
no one is watchin
smoke yourself to oblivion
mix whatever chemicals numb the noise
break your knuckles against concrete ...
this disgustin weakness in yourself
yet here you are
soakin in your own misery
you worthless pile of flesh
is this what we’re doin?
get the fuck up
remember that hell knows your name
you’ve danced with demons
walked thru the god damn flames
and you’re cryin over…what?
this?
fuckin laughable
no one’s comin to save you
no one gives a damn
no one is watchin
smoke yourself to oblivion
mix whatever chemicals numb the noise
break your knuckles against concrete ...
#anger
#depression
#SelfReflection #weakness
#SelfReflection #weakness
168 reads
10 Comments
KittyFromHell
Poem Published
25th Mar 2025 11:59pm
25th Mar 2025 11:59pm
No - A Word I Can No Longer Say
I used to be so full of "fuck you"
My heart was passionate,
My mind opinionated.
Boy, you couldn't tell me shit!
The years have gone by,
And I've grown older.
Days turned to decades
Of shutting up and backing down,
Playing by everyone else's rules
Just to get by.
Nights I've spent screaming and blubbering
Into blackness
The only time my voice truly finds me
Crawling back on hands and knees
After hours and hours
Of choking on words unsaid in the daylight.
These days I...
My heart was passionate,
My mind opinionated.
Boy, you couldn't tell me shit!
The years have gone by,
And I've grown older.
Days turned to decades
Of shutting up and backing down,
Playing by everyone else's rules
Just to get by.
Nights I've spent screaming and blubbering
Into blackness
The only time my voice truly finds me
Crawling back on hands and knees
After hours and hours
Of choking on words unsaid in the daylight.
These days I...
#childhood
#depression
#SelfDiscovery
#SelfReflection
#SelfWorth
87 reads
3 Comments
Ambjr
Poem Published
15th Mar 2025 7:10pm
15th Mar 2025 7:10pm
back on my bullshit - shitty poetry part 2
look who crashed his own funeral
standin in the back
eatin all of the good hor d'oeuvres
middle finger raised to hell's security cameras
I'm bulletproof baby
well more like...
duct taped extensively
and surprisinly functional
my demons called a meetin
to discuss my recent performance
they're concerned I lack commitment
to our five year plan of self destruction
the same hellfire that burned me down
now makes excellent mood lightin
for my after pity party
where I dance on my own ashes
the...
standin in the back
eatin all of the good hor d'oeuvres
middle finger raised to hell's security cameras
I'm bulletproof baby
well more like...
duct taped extensively
and surprisinly functional
my demons called a meetin
to discuss my recent performance
they're concerned I lack commitment
to our five year plan of self destruction
the same hellfire that burned me down
now makes excellent mood lightin
for my after pity party
where I dance on my own ashes
the...
#bipolar
#depression
#determination
#healing
#PersonalGrowth
125 reads
6 Comments
Duende
Poem Published
8th Mar 2025 2:00pm
8th Mar 2025 2:00pm
The Lights
fatal mind fetal
pose dying to
find my home
afraid to feel
to hear to see
it hurts to face
it hurts to erase
the pain kills me
eats me inside
it hurts to hide
tired of fighting
& of being alive
afraid of the dark
the demons inside
the night & light it
hurts to wake up
i curl my back to
loneliness hide
inside their riffs
and cries try to
forget who i was
Archive hears me
where no one does
pose dying to
find my home
afraid to feel
to hear to see
it hurts to face
it hurts to erase
the pain kills me
eats me inside
it hurts to hide
tired of fighting
& of being alive
afraid of the dark
the demons inside
the night & light it
hurts to wake up
i curl my back to
loneliness hide
inside their riffs
and cries try to
forget who i was
Archive hears me
where no one does
#depression
#suicide
209 reads
14 Comments
Ambjr
Poem Published
9th Mar 2025 12:52pm
9th Mar 2025 12:52pm
descent
I reach thru shadows
a moment of warmth
a flame underwater
collectin light I cannot drink
I have fallen
into the space
where echoes go
to die
this is where I end
a moment of warmth
a flame underwater
collectin light I cannot drink
I have fallen
into the space
where echoes go
to die
this is where I end
#depression
146 reads
3 Comments
DevilsChild
Poem Published
13th Mar 2025 10:38pm
13th Mar 2025 10:38pm
2D World (Posted 7/18/2021)
some days I feel so far away
because no one hears silent screams
so detached from my mind
i’ll accept with time
there's no place for me
I feel so real yet so fake
no one finds the time to think
about my feelings about my past
but then again that's how I am
one day I’ll be so all alone
and I’ll be happy in my 2D world
no one to help me or save me
just an empty space to call my own
I'm worried when I’m happy
and I am open when I’m mad
the things that build me also break me
something that I don’t...
because no one hears silent screams
so detached from my mind
i’ll accept with time
there's no place for me
I feel so real yet so fake
no one finds the time to think
about my feelings about my past
but then again that's how I am
one day I’ll be so all alone
and I’ll be happy in my 2D world
no one to help me or save me
just an empty space to call my own
I'm worried when I’m happy
and I am open when I’m mad
the things that build me also break me
something that I don’t...
#depression
83 reads
3 Comments
AfterSexDilemma
Poem Published
21st Mar 2025 4:12pm
21st Mar 2025 4:12pm
Me
Do you ever get tired,
Of being admired?
You only want one.
Instead you get a ton.
Thanks for the friends.
Can't wait to ditch them.
They call themselves,
The government.
I just wanted one.
Not everything,
Under the sun.
Their jobs are the pun.
In the web that I've spun.
Do you ever get tired,
Of being admired?
Just trying to have fun,
Not call you, "hun"
Of being admired?
You only want one.
Instead you get a ton.
Thanks for the friends.
Can't wait to ditch them.
They call themselves,
The government.
I just wanted one.
Not everything,
Under the sun.
Their jobs are the pun.
In the web that I've spun.
Do you ever get tired,
Of being admired?
Just trying to have fun,
Not call you, "hun"
#depression
#loneliness
#philosophical #TruthOfLife
#philosophical #TruthOfLife
100 reads
4 Comments
toniscales
Lost Girl
Lost Girl
Poem Published
3rd Apr 2025 2:40am
3rd Apr 2025 2:40am
The Waiting Game
I sit on apartment patio
iron railing chipping
framing neighbors
coming home from work
in twilight gray and soft and purple
loneliness eats away at
what is left of me
this time of day
after the coffee has ravished my flesh and soul
and the same chronic emptiness
abandonment issues
first it was bipolar depression
then borderline personality disorder
a flurry of titles I fondled in my fingers
OCD
PTSD
and all I know is
I cry daily
and you can never show me...
iron railing chipping
framing neighbors
coming home from work
in twilight gray and soft and purple
loneliness eats away at
what is left of me
this time of day
after the coffee has ravished my flesh and soul
and the same chronic emptiness
abandonment issues
first it was bipolar depression
then borderline personality disorder
a flurry of titles I fondled in my fingers
OCD
PTSD
and all I know is
I cry daily
and you can never show me...
#bipolar
#depression
#MentalHealth
59 reads
4 Comments
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