To Dad Called 'Heavy' (R.I.P)

Daddy's girl, Daddy's girl, where did you go?
Grew up so fast, you just couldn't keep track.

Lost myself, when I thought I would grow,
You know I'll always pick up the other kids slack.

Daddy, I'm sorry if I ever made you feel sad and blue,
As I look back on the years, I wonder where the flew.

I love you more than any words can ever express,
I am sorry that I caused this bullshit of a mess.

Never doubt that I am so very proud to be your daughter,
Like the time you taught me to swim, just threw me in the water.

I know I don't always show how deeply I care,
My mistakes will forever be my crosses to bare.

Trust and believe that I have only respect for my father,
It hurts me that I've caused you such burden and bother.

I just want you to know, I don't care what these fuckers say,
You are still the big man in my book, to this very day.

Through teardrops and laughter, know you're lovingly adored
So grateful you're my pops, I thank the Almighty Lord.

Dad, if it wasn't for you I wouldn't have any street smarts,
You have won countless friends and broken even more hearts.

I don't understand how we got so screwed around,
At least we can have the bartender bring another round.

I'm sorry if I've failed you or made you ashamed,
Just remember that your wild child will one day be tamed.

I have a heart so brave and true, better not fuck with my dad,
Or you'll be lookin' over your shoulder, 'cause I'm spittin' mad.

Disrespect my dad and I'll show you how bad you can feel,
As I knock out your teeth, you know I'm for real.

As for his past, no one in his life can cast the first stone,
I know that you want your faults to be open and known.

Dad, no matter the distance or how stupid I've behaved,
I realize you love me and I try to be brave.

You've taught me worthwhile and at times useless knowledge
We can only imagine our bodies endless abuse and mileage.

You are a tough old coot, a die hard for sure,
I know any wise advice given is loving and pure.


      I love and miss you Dad rest in peace.
            3/24/52-09/17/12