Somebody else

* = screaming/growling
searching, searching for myself. Your not here i miss you dear and without you i need help. Crying, crying on the floor. Your face is smiling back at me but talking to a picture; i hope your happy with the blur. One day; my love you'll realize your better off. I don't want us to end but a month away and you'll start to say 'she's so long gone' and maybe you'll put us dying in a song. Bleeding, bleeding for you, speaking of you where are you? Someday you'll find somebody new if we last for 2 weeks, well dance to this beat because i don't think i'm good enough to get that far. Trying, trying to be my best but dying, i need a bit of a rest. Lying, lying to you. Is that what your doing to? If i knew the truth, I'd stay with you. One day; my love you'll realize your better off with her and you'll leave me here to die one day my love you'll see the real me and you'll know thats not the person you wanted to be. It's not you, It's me. My head on your chest your all i need. But it's me, no self esteem, can be so mean, when i wanna be. *You my love; it's not your fault and one day you'll see i was by default. why do you  even love me? I'm not that girl they wanted me to be...* Searching, searching for love. I found it but it's not enough. To keep me; happy for days. To keep me; trying this way. I miss you; I want to be with you. It's the only time i'm happy; all I ever wanna do is be with you, Is be with you. Lying, Lying to myself. Trying to get me some help. I'm trying; I push for you and I'll persist if that's what i need to do. I didn't give up; but now that your mine, i always wanna be with you don't wanna waste my time, and thank you, thank you my friend but dear god do i hope that this isn't our end. Trying, and hey i know you are to i know you'll lie to yourself if it's what you need to do, We all know I'm always craving more, and i'll stand here in the cold, cold rain knocking on your door how ever long it takes for you to answer my dear, how ever long you need to take my dear, forever will be horrible with someone else, forever could tear me apart, turn me into someone else, forever would be a fucking living hell without you, forever could possibly kill me if it had to, forever ending, my forever with you, coming to an end, is that what you want forever to do? *Die! Die my dear! my darling, I am all you fear! Die; leave me to die; die here! Slowly dying, and that's why i'm lying! lying on the ground, wishing for you! wishing for you!* Someday; you'll see your perfect for me but then you'll realize i'm not your kind, and then you'll runaway leaving the thoughts of yesterdays and a month; a month away sometimes i'm paranoid if your a day a way; a step away; just one breath away....*die! die here with me! i'm all  you really need! die! stay here alone with me! I need you, do you need me? do you need me...?* Searching, searching for some help. Sooner or later you will find somebody else.