A Letter To Daddy's Monster

Dear Monster,

Thank You for coming along with Daddy to visit me for my birthday last weekend and for playing with me. My bruises have bloomed nicely. Looking at them today, i wished so badly that i could show them to the entire world! If only i could; i would proudly tell everyone that You marked me to show that i belong to Daddy. Every time i caught a glimpse of one of them in the mirror while i was getting ready for work, i remembered You giving it to me and a sweet shiver swept up my spine. It hurt to get them; oh how it hurt; but i think You deduced as much from my squirming and unsuccessful attempts to escape. Yes, Your dark laughter told me You knew exactly how much it hurt and inflicting such torment on me was exhilarating to You. Causing me pain is Your favorite hobby after all.

i really want to tell You that i am always happy to see You when You visit. But i promised Daddy 1,000% honesty, so I owe the same to You. The truth is i am always happy to see Daddy and i try hard to be happy to see You too. Don’t misunderstand me; i accept You and all that You are and i try to love You as i love Daddy, but i fear You to the very depths of my being. i would be a fool not to do so. i know that You want nothing less than to claim me, own me, hurt me, and then destroy me. My fear is like a pheromone to you.

It confuses me sometimes to want so badly to be able to love You as i love Daddy. After all, You embody Daddy’s darkest appetites and some of the things for which You hunger are horrifyingly frightening. But i do love Daddy and You are a part of Him, so i try to love You too. It isn’t easy… even He doesn’t always like that You exist, but He knows He needs You. He knows some of your qualities give Him strength when He needs it most. So we feed You just enough to keep You sated in an effort to prevent You from taking over completely. i know there are times when He fears losing His tight hold on You. i know He fears that if He loses His grip You might run wild, hurt me beyond repair, or burn down the world around us, but He is too strong for that to ever happen. Daddy is much stronger than You.

i know Daddy will always protect me and keep me safe from the truly vile and violent things You wish to do to me. Never think the depth of Your evilness or the strength of Your desires will give You an upper hand. For although Your twisted sickness runs deep, Daddy’s love for me runs even deeper. He would either send me away for good or put You down like the animal that You are before He would see me suffer the full range of your depravity.

So while i will always fear You, i will always know that Daddy is in control, not just of me, but of Himself and of You. Daddy loves me more than He needs You. You are important to Him, but i am more important and You will lose if ever He must make a choice between us.

You are welcome to visit me again anytime and to leave more pretty purple and red marks on my body. i do love having them and i thank You again for the ones i now wear. But You must never try to visit me without Daddy. i don’t think He would tolerate that.

Sincerely,
Daddy’s little one