Its Hard (Decisions)

It's hard
Wen yu got children
Looking up 2 yu
Coming 2 yu
Yet yu can't past yaself
Wen yu in love wit someone
Who wit someone else
While still trying 2b wit me
Even tho dey chose demself
I think I must leave
I'm jealous & envious
They want me 2 stay
So precious so innocent
If I pack up & go
I know I'll regret it
If I stay & let go
I know I'll regret it
On my mind it's a major choice
On my heart is a major position
2 just stay or 2 go away
Wats a hell of a decision
Wen im here im stress
Not self stress but stressing da home
I'm not even at my best
Should I lay dis chapter 2 rest
Maybe they b happy Wen im gone
Honestly I think they'll a betta unit alone
I want dem 2 have it all
I can't give it 2 dem at all
My life is Aaron
They love us
Maybe or maybe not
They might want us
2Stay give it another shot
Maybe not or maybe so
Either way I don't kno
Seen like things are
Difficult 2 understand
As if im misunderstood
I'm trying 2b a man
Do I ever believe I could
I'm thru wit blaming it on my hand
Instead imma play wat I got
Make my life work 4 my card
Haven't decided on my plan
I hope we stay whether or not
In the end I'll b emotionally physically mentally sexually scarred
It's hard