What You Really Meant To Say....

You never really know someone.

This...is fact not fiction.

So...
I thought I knew my neighbor
and his girlfriend
quite well... been knowing them
for 2 years....


After coffee and such
He asks me
"Hey,by the way we are missing
some stuff out of the basement,
and we were wondering if you knew
what happend to it...and if so
can you getit back?"

I was stunned that he could say this
so as a matter of fact.....  

A million things went through
my mind...
Namely...& foremostly
I had to remind myself to breathe

Maybe it was just me...
Or
Maybe his statement was
just...a little fucked up!
As I physicaly started
backing up
creating space between him and..

My Thoughts that were fast becoming
words that would blow out of
my mouth and all over him
Assaulting him
as if I were a verbal oozi!

Then he says...
"I didnt mean to offend you"
In his best upper middle class
snooty aass voice...
I said "well who else did you
ask about this?...Or was it just
The Black Woman in the building?"

He looked at me as if I had reached back
and Bitch Slapped him!
(Which now upon hind sight...
that may not have been a half bad idea)

So I asked again...
just in case
his middle class hearing had gone out...

Of course there was no reply...
however he DID turn 7 shades of red..

I told him he should be ashamed
for approaching me in such a way
I mean Hell he couldve asked me
If I had anything missing outa the basement

But NO
that was just TOO damn civilized ...
I guess.

I told him that being offended was beyond
the point now
My feelings were hurt.
I thought we were better than that...
I thought we had all come so much
farther than that...
I swear ...
" I thought people
were judged on the content
of there character,
not the color of there skin"
What happend to that neighbor?"


Of course.... there was no reply
So I told him...
What you really meant to say was
something completely diffrent
than what your ignorant mind allowed
you to at the time...

I know you really didnt mean that
because if you did...
then its a garanteed fact....
We...may yet be neighbors...
but we will no longer be friends

As I walked away...
He just kept stuttering about
what he meant ... to say.


Asshole.