Someone's pawn

I wake up, your not there
and I start to cry
Here is to another day
that will seem to never pass by

Each minute feels like an hour
and days feel like years
And still my heart aches
my eyes flow with endless tears

I don't even know
if you even care
if you was ever, really there
or if I was just a pawn
to help you move on
from the reality you are livin
any reason, can be a given

My faith in love is destroying me
and my mind holds me hostage
my heart lays motionless
in my minds, deadly bondage

I just wish I would hear something
no matter what it is
because anything is better
than going through this
Than feeling powerless
feeling so twisted
as if I never mattered
as if I never existed
in your heart
or in your life
as if I was
never your wife
to have and to hold
through pain and strife
This time apart
cuts like a knife

So where ever you are
where ever you go
I hope this was worth it
I hope that you know
That I am here broken
with words of love
from you, unspoken
and the breathe of life in my soul,
is steadily choken
any life I might had
any love I had left, open
will die with your love
if this is what you are invoking