Just Can't Accept The Truth

I loved her but I couldn't tell
her,
for her ways were so oblivious and mystery
like.

I acted the way i did and i lost her because
of it,
I miss her daily and mope around.

She meant more than i could explain to the expression
of life's purpose of existence,
My heart throbs with pain each day.

I just miss her so fucking much and i can't accept that
i fucked up to many times with my jealousy,
and my eyes are what withhold all the memories to my heart.

She was so elligent and perfect,
her ways were so more extraordinaire than any of the girls
ive ever met.

The emptiness is unexplainable to the feeling that i cannot
put out of my pathetic fucked up shame i show each day,
It is not only the pain that i feel from her being gone,
but the pain of the truth i cannot accept...