Remembering Sunday.

Sunday the 22nd of August 2010.
Will never be forgotten. 
That was the day of our first kiss.
It was like someone performed a magic trick inside of my gut.
And later that night I asked you to be mine.
After that amazing day.
I knew, All I wanted from that point on was you.
It's like you brought me to life.
Without me actually having to die.
The times you whisper you love me in my ear.
Are the moments I hold dear.
If you ever think somethings changed between us.
Or the way I feel about you has.
Just watch the way I look at you.
Even when I don't say a word.
It will tell you everything you need to know.
Just by the way I look at you.
I tell you this.
Every word you say to me.
I believe it.
I know she hates me.
And she hates you.
But you were my choice.
The first time I saw you, I wanted you.
I hate the situation I put you and myself into.
It was wrong and handled poorly.
But I wouldn't really change a thing.
Because I wouldn't want a single thing between us to be different.
I love the way things are right now.
It's gotten a bit harder for us.
But it will work.
I hope so anyways.
You promised you would try.
That's all I ask.
Because I will never give up on you.
I will always be there for you.
The person you can come to.
As your best friend or your boyfriend.
I want this to be perfect.
I want us to share everything.
The things we don't share with anyone else.
I love you, you can see it in my eye's.
And with the way I speak and treat you.
I will treat you like your the air I breathe.
So I will never take advantage because you could end my life.
You could cut off my breathing.
But it's not like I'm held hostage.
I'm just trying to describe the way you make me feel.
And the power you hold in your hands.
It's my life, my heart, my blood and veins.
It's my thoughts, my everything.
You hold the key to everything about me.
Open any door you want.
I'll show you everything.
From my darkest moments and thoughts to my happiest times.
I was missing inside of my own body.
I got lost in my thoughts and feelings.
But you saved me.
Made everything clear.
I knew what I had to do.
I know what I have to do.
If you don't believe that I love you.
I'll put it this way.
I'd sit and wait for you.
Forever.
Because I know what it's going to be like with you.
And I don't want to risk that.
For anything.
If I get hurt in the end.
Then I will never really heal from it.
Because I've let you in so easy.
I hope it wont be that way.
I always want you to care about me.
Because I will ALWAYS care about you.
I'll always remember Sunday.

Dear lily, I love you with everything I've got.
No matter what they say.
Remembering Sunday.