Lost

I saw you in my dreams last night and you were smiling at me.  
It’s the time when my mind’s at rest and when I feel serene.  
No matter what you do in them, no matter what you say,  
I cherish this most of all when I’m in night-time play.  
 
It’s the little things about you that I miss most of all.  
Did you feel my presence or my heart-felt call?  
I saw the sparkle in your eyes and I miss you calling my name.  
But now I know it wasn’t true and you were playing a game.  
 
I cannot seem to stray away from longing thoughts of you.  
You were my path of righteous light as I saw a different view.  
You were my greatest Love I’ve ever known in my life.  
I was on the road to redemption and wanted you as my Wife.  
 
As the days go forth I wonder why you left me so alone,  
Now I’m guarded and I fear that my heart has turned to stone.  
As days become weeks and weeks become months, I think I miss you more.  
Now I’m left with an empty void since you walked out the door.  
 
How am I to live again when you’ve taken my heart with you?  
You pulled the rug from under me and I didn’t have a clue.  
I thought you loved me with all your heart, I thought you really cared.  
Now I live in solitude and dwell on the things we shared.  
 
There’s few things I do each day and I’ll always see your face.  
There’s no joy in my life since I’ve fallen from your grace.  
I have no smiles in my heart and there’s no more fun.  
You were my island and my nation.  You were my radiant Sun.  
 
Now I’m just an empty man wandering without my soul.  
Just a shell since you left; your absence has taken its toll.  
How can I heal this vacant void you left in me that day?  
Angels mourn our parting now as skies grow dark and gray.  
 
I cried to God and confessed my sins just to have you back.  
Now I see no future and my twisted world is black.  
He abandoned me by taking you I begged Him as I swore.  
Now I lost all faith in Him and we don't speak no more.