down by sky

today,
even blue skies hold loathing.

then, like a nightmare,
black storm clouds bruise the horizon,
edge closer like dread.

after the emptiness wakes me,
I get up with a headful of shit.
outside,
the wind flails the skin from daylight,
buries the corpse in a shroud of leaves and rain.

For a moment before the thunder,
I glimpse the red lipped mouth of heaven and,
lost in its kiss,
I taste despair.

beyond comprehension,
remorse.
How I mourn you,
my sweetest love