I believe you.

I'm not dead.
Not this time.
This time I'm alive.
With power in my body to do whatever.
As long as it's for you.
My veins pump constantly to your heart beat.
As you kiss me on the check.
Whisper hunny, I love you no one else.
I believe in every word and every letter in that sentence.
You said you would never leave.
Never hurt me.
It's so easy to believe you.
I don't deserve you or all the things we're going to share together.
And I'm definitely not worth your touch.
Like the times you run your fingers tips across my arm.
Or the times your lips touch mine.
But if this was so fake?
Why would it be with so much passion.
With so much feeling towards it.
Towards us.
Sometimes I miss you so much that the air I breathe.
It feels like it's getting thicker.
It's like the world is against me.
Tell's me, I'm not meant to live without you around.
But here I'm am.
For the first time.
I'm on my knee's, Trying to breathe.
Without you.
I love you, please believe me.
I swear it's the truth this time.
I can only speak of truth around you.
Why would I want to lie?
It would only cost me you.
That's not something I would leave to chance.
I close my eye's and wish my shadow would stop following me.
Because it carries all my faults and mistakes.
I just wanna escape with you.
From everything.
Just me and you.

But I know now.
This most likely wont happen.
Because the world is against you and me. 
I'm not sure if you think we're strong enough.
But I think we are.
It's not left up to me.
I know where I want to go.
It's up you now....