sunrise

  Its six twenty am as I watch the sun begin to rise with eyes that haven't closed in true sleep in god knows how long.
Its seven thirty in kansas, she'll be getting ready to start her day, already perfect as she rolls out of bed.
 
 I start to wonder if shes alone this morning but decide Id rather not know the answer. Whats the point in finding another wound to pick at?

 Enough dope for one more shot, six hours till work, a fuel pump to fix and I still have to get more dope to get thru the day. I decide I'll just say fuck it and drop whatever im doing when it gets close to noon.

 Yep, im a fucking trainwreck.