Dear Michaela

Does my heart still beat?
I ask you because it still lies in your hands.
Does my head still pound?
I ask you because I am too numb to tell for myself.

Does my mind still race?
Or is it running from the thought that maybe you're really gone?
Does this end well for me?
Or do I die here alone, miserable, without you?

Am I living in my worst nightmare?
Or am I dying in my wildest dreams?
Am I killing myself?
Or am I just starting to learn what life is?

But no, I'm dying.
Can't I live a while longer?
But no, I'm dying.
Can't you save me?

But no, I'm dying!
I will save myself or die trying,
Save myself from living any longer.
Why won't I just DIE?!

DIE!!! Die, Dakota, just die.

NOTE TO READERS: first of all, in my "introduce yourself" post, I mentioned my specific rhyme scheme. This is one of a select few that do not follow that.

Second of all, it is important to realize that in the last line, the name Dakota refers to myself.