never ending war

Me not being a problem
Me not being an addict
Is like a child with blocks
Trying to do mathmatics

Like a bird without wings
Trying to fly from the nest
Having all the answers
Not passing the test

Ive realized im troubled
With a diease, undiagnosed
The main problem with me
Most dont know

Its a trouble with hunger
With an unfilling feed
Starving my family
To support my needs

Surrender is not an option
My fathers expectations so high
Guess he was too
Thats why he wasnt in my life

If i had a white flag
Id wave in frustration
Surrender to a higher power
Praying i can make it

Id throw down my arms
Bang my last shot
Thinking i can do it alone
Knowing i can not

Accept im a junkie
With no strength left to fight
Open up to new options
Thankful im alive

Give it a chance
Surrender my guns
Throw this needle in the trash
Grateful im done....