Lie

Tv is blaring
sitting alone
mind exploding
heart racing
How fast how slow can I make everything
take another pill
out of the decoritive case
throw into my mouth
take another pill
create another smile
I feel like I'm on fire
take another
no sense
of memory
no sense of time
dry in my throat
slip down
with the right amount
drink it all up with
little pills
hidden
throwing my mind
if I steal
will you forgive
if it is today
can it also be
every other day
can you make a promise
if I can offer up some cash
if i can
could you give again
offer more
if I lie
about my age
if I lie just in the right way
just go in the store and by me more
just go into the depths of whatever city
and get me more
all you want
is some person
to be there
well I have got nothing else to do
so to the all of the "you"s
every single person
I know it is a lie
caring brother will forgive
stupid stranger will give
I have got nothing else to love
no time wasted
can hear you out
just know it is all a lie
stranger
just know I can never reject
and I will never get that low
so if you ask
why not
just throw a knife
up to you
and take whatever I want
not giving up myself
not keeping this bullshit away from my mind
just take another pill
just smoke more
just drink more
just breathe in
and hope I will wake
the next day
to get more