worst than elm street

I'm horrible at life
Good at dope
Which makes me an addict
With little hope

I shoot up a wish
My arms start to scar
Floating in the sky
Getting high on a star

I look at a picture
Smile at my daughter
Wonder what she thinks of me
Not being a father

Wonder if she knows how my fear became complacent
Doing what i wanted to do
Not worrying how she made it

Wonder if she knows
Me looking at  her smile
her tears become my fears
I cry for a while

Fear has four letters
Love has the same
Scared of a new break
My heart holds shame

Am i fearful of my future
Without what used to be my fein
Begging and theifing
For what never made me, me

Am i afraid to let go and just let God
Or is my fear of sobriety
What causes me to nod

An old point gets closer
My fear sets in
There's holes in my past
Bigger than in my skin

As my fear of not being there to be a dad to my little girl
My fear magnifies of what i
Think of the world

I let it all go
Learning how to accept
My fear of me
My fear of regret