Why Do I Even Try?

Why?
Is it everytime I get attracted
To a really amazing guy,
Something goes wrong.
Am I not supposed to feel
Happy?
Why am I trying?
Should I just go and die?
Or should I keep chasing you,
Even though
Now I probably won't get you.
I love you.
How do I know if you
Mean it when you say
I love you
To me?

:'(