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Learning when you,...I feel

When you speak to me
I feel hopeless yet I desire you
When you win
I feel like a god standing on the side of a cliff
When you leave me
I feel desperate and crazed 
When you quiet down 
I feel remorse
When you sleep
I feel some measure of peace
When you wake up
I feel the cycle begin again
When you are no where to be found 
I feel lost, suicidal, thankful, confused

Addiction will you leave me alone

When you speak to me
I feel peace
When you win
I feel like I have a purpose
When you don't leave me
I feel like I can get through it
When you quiet down
I feel the need to listen harder
When you are there and I can't sleep
I feel I can talk to you
When you answer 
I know your listening
When you are every where I look
I know I am walking with you

God, help me to never turn away again