The cup of Peitho

Trapped in a see of blue, piercing deeply inside my soul, forgetting everything that's around me, locked in stasis with no control
no matter the repercussions of submitting to this feeling, no matter of the destruction temporarily I am kneeling,
such a sucker for this emotion devotion to words unspoken this love potion I swallowed is ripping my chest wide open,
exposing all of my secrets destroying all my fences, If only I could keep this I could carry on defenseless,
blindsided by eyes blue like I'm lost in the skies yet I'm destined to free fall forbidden ever to fly.
wondering how I can cope I'm drowning yet I'm afloat right on the surface I can taste the salt it's burning my throat.
When I'm close I think of the words when I talk the words don't come out, split second hesitations cause a paradox of the mouth.
Her spirit dances with mine and briefly she understands, but being born with a dick is killing my only chance.
To demonstrate we could be, much more than she'll ever be, as time ticks away I'll fade away into memory.