First Rejections

When I was young, I was a dreamer
Looking to everything with a glint in my eye
When I would see a girl in my sleep
I'd wake up, hold my head and sigh
Never knew the meaning of an ego
I just knew I was never right
And I never really thought to fight

But this girl kept showing up
She'd pass me in the hall and she'd smile
Never mustered any legitimate courage
So I went online and asked "what's up?"

My heart never ran so fast before
I was optimistic and foolishly so
Never spoke a word to her in person
Always preferred to admire from afar
Never notice things all the other boys did
The only thing real was how her face made me feel

She replied to my message
And my heart skipped a beat
She didn't know who I was
Fair enough, it was something
But then I ran down field without the ball
Asked her if she would like to see a movie
She hesitated, laughed and said no
She laughed some more and told me to go

Sweet rejection
Fuel for anticipation
Sick rejection
In need of information
But my head fills in the blanks
Not good enough, too sad and stuff
Never up to par, always off the mark