Affected

The struggle within,the war rages on,the anger burns to no end..
poisoned by this incomprehensible why,unknown to me this force,this calling,this madness..it will not leave me,my sanity
slowly withdraws from my senses..like wildfire racing across a
landscape consuming,devouring all in its path,such is the torment
and pain to be had..lost in the searching for answers and reasons
not found,my head starts to pound from thinking so much i try to
distract by drinking too much..
to forget but a dream,a wish unfulfilled,trying to discover the
truth,the meaning for this,this i don't know what,i just wish it
would Stop..trying to get clear from this monster that Haunts me
in nightmare..