DSM-IV

Where is my joy?
I have lost it somewhere along the way.
My food has no taste
My hunger disappeared
No need for food
No want for life
Everything so mundane and surreal.
Awake all night
No pill or drink can find me peace.
Thousands of tears
Cheeks stained
Eyes puffy
Just a shell of this person
That no longer exists.
I know my body is still alive
Rapid beating heart
Pounding head
Brain flooded with thoughts
I can't seem to halt.
My heart is empty
My compassion displaced
Feeling slighted and alone.
So here I sit
Smoking my cigarettes
That I've quit countless times
Trying to feel alive.