Hoping It's Just a Phase

I am stuck
Returning
Still sitting and
Burning
Flipping over yearning
Turning
Sides with the tide
Learning
To keep my head on straight

With your absence
Brings frequent gloom
Nothing that you said
Seems to escape my head
The words they bounce
Just as buoyant as ever
You can never be mine
But my ties will never sever
What we were

Adjusting every day
As my belt begins to loosen
Losing weight and gaining bad thoughts
All the while you still linger
At the forefront of my mind
You say shitty things
And then tell me that you're mine
I guess that's just the way I like it
Even though I think I hate it
Someone needs to save me
From these masochistic ways
I'm just gritting teeth and hoping
This is just a phase