In my Feelings

Sitting in my feelings deep
my emotions are numb
but I feel the fear start to creep
reminding me of things Ive done
Past sins Ive committed
Old lies to and from Old Lovers
images of the filthy sheets where I laid still
asking myself how did I get here again
waking up next to him knowing damn well
he was going home to her.
Grimy shit
I can almost feel the tingles from the cold fingers
heavy on my shoulders
weighing down my soul
screaming let me go
but I cannot move.
The devils riding my back
or thats what My granny used to tell me
I need an angel
quick save me.
from me.