Cuckold

Laugh clown laugh
Big boys don’t cry
What a wonderful lie
To live by
Would have been bad enough
You left me for another
But for my brother?
I’ve lost both of you
Nothing else to do
But laugh

At work can’t be seen as the sad jerk
Who wants to listen?
When thanking god
They’re not in my position
So don’t be the joke-bloke
Laugh clown use your cloak
Of impenetrable humour
They’ve heard the rumour
They know you’ve left me
I appear carefree

You took our child
I ache to hold her close
To smell the bath soap on her
To hear her say
Love you daddy
Huddles an’ cuddles
Read me a story before I sleep
It’s at night the grief runs deep
It's in the dark I weep
Silver fingers of an uncaring moon
Intrude into my sleepless room
I curse the moon

But I’m a bloke can’t scream to friends
Pour out my heart and soul
Of the pain that never ends
No longer whole
Cuckold
Who wants to know?
Can’t tell of my hell
My awful plight
My hearts grim fear
Of the endless night

So I wear an armoured shell
Of waggish wit and get on with it
So clever your deceit
So complete
Your coup de grace
Never saw it coming
So there you are

I must make do with our child
Every other weekend
Have her back on Sunday
Fresh for school on Monday
And every time she waves goodbye
I want to die
Be brave cuckold
And laugh
For the fool you are