Let Me Be Straight

Do I really deserve this?
My life will never be at bliss
I'm disgusting, a monster
The devils calling to me, "Let's taunt her"
With evil thoughts
Make that brain fucking rot
to the worthless shit it represents
These feelings aren't very pleasant
I feel a pulling on my heart
Like this pain is literally tearing me apart
I can't think in a straight path
I wish I could wash this shit off in the bath
What did I do?
To deserve this from you
There's just too much on my plate,
Please God please just let me be straight