Please Accept, Do Not Forget

That night of sin
Sex in the park
Up against a fence
Alone in the dark

Nine months later
A son was then born
Looking just like you
I could have sworn

I married another
We two could not be
I had to forget you
Please can you see?

So I forgot you

Two year down the line
My marriage at stake
Forgetting made me ill
Made my mind break

You were then gone
I could not remember
Just a shaky feeling
Each snowy December

I crashed and burned
Time after time
Tried taking my life
It was such a crime

Why did I forget you?

My life pulled together
Eight years of fight
Stable if not perfect
Till the next fateful night

“Hello my lovely”
So where is your partner?”
I look at you confused
“No? Then give me your number”

Our love life began
I thought we were true
Because of things about you
That I simply just knew

Did I completely forget you?

One day looking at photos
I then noticed your fear
You started to remember
To you it all became clear

You started to panic
You started to run
From the only reminder
Your one and only son

I did not understand
Could not comprehend
Why did you leave me?
Why this sudden end?

I started to remember you

To me it came back
My amnesia unbound
The guilt and the hurt
My memories re-found

The fear and panic
Started to unfold
The intense guilty feeling
Of the son I did stole

I begged and I pleaded
You stayed still silent
The emotions in me
Rage in me violent

WHY did I have to remember you?

Counselling for months
I just kept on trying
Through tears and the hurt
I just kept on crying

For me it’s now over
My mind finally free
Accepted the forgetting
And what it did to me

To readers I write this
To all you I do beg
Please learn to accept
And never forget.