if i could have told you

for the the comp


if i could have told you
that you are the reason i no longer cut my hair or shave
that all your maybeline and inner twisting is only beautiful to pop culture puppets
i don't wanna be me but i'm glad i'm not you
if i could have told you i have so many things i wish i could have told you
so here i sit on a gasoline soaked mattress with a hand full of matches
i wanna see your mascara run
for hours i would sit and wait for you to call
now by the time you do i'm already gone
i hate all your tattoos
i still see them everywhere on everyone else
i hate the way you project your insecurities on other people and accuse me of your own mistakes

if i could have told you just/
how much/
i think you suck/
i would have but you had my lips sewn shut/
with lust/
i never loved you just the way you fuck/
everything up/

you can justify anything,somehow it's my fault you're a coke whore
your always so sad or mad or sick and tired of me not dying
she's got a phd in feeling sorry for herself
and no one else
the smartest dumb girl i've ever met
no such thing as friend
i'm glad you can't move on, i just move out
no disappointment dig a hole
kick the chair
the setting sun calls my name and your lipstick beats the shit out of me still
i wish i could say i miss you but i never really knew who that was
i can't think of a better way to word it
no lip service, roll the 8 millimeter and drink your tonic
belladonna and castor beans
by all means
if i could have i would have told you
you only look good with my dick in your mouth nowadays
why so sick?
fuck waiting it's all worth racing for

if i could have told you just/
how much i think you suck/
i would have but you had my lips sewn shut/
with lust/
i never loved you just the way you fuck/
everything up/

if i could have told you, you would'nt have listened anyway
if i could have told you...........
goodbye.