Im i lost? :/

I can't breath.... The smoke off my breath is fogging my sight... I can't see where I am... I have lost the way... No where to go... Up, down left right?... No way to now for sure... Im lost... And no one will look for me... If I die right here where would I go? No one will miss me... Am dieing inside... I feel my soul slowly giving up... Soon I will hit the ground.... And all that I did... Suffer would be for nothing.... Becuse of this I feel happy... No... Not because im suicidal, nor because I gave up... But because I have a dead line to do whant I need to do...motivation... Im over the self putty and sorrow... Im done with watching life go by in vain.... I have a plan.... Do you?.... But first I need to find a road to fallow...