Junk Weight

What have I become?

Dont even know myself.

I just want to run,

Wont somebody help?

I just want to scream,

I just want to cry.

Is this all just a Dream?

So fucking empty am I.

My word is all I've had,

Now that, too, is a lie.

I feel so fucking bad,

I'd rather just be high.

The pin tears through my soul,

A scream silenced within.

But I've lost my control,

Another scream begins.

Wish I could fly away,

But broken wings wont fly.

I'm lost in disarray,

I hang my head and cry.

Just cry and cry into my hands,

This person isn't me.

This isn't who I really am,

This isn't who I want to be.

What have I become?

I've lost my will to dream.

I just want to numb,

Myself to everything.

I cant go on like this.

I'll surely kill myself,

Looking for my bliss.

Wont somebody help?

I used to be so proud,

I used to be so free.

Now I search for clouds,

Now I'm just a creep.

I've built up all this pain,

And shot it to the sky,

But I still feel the same,

I wish I could just fly.

Fly away from Me,

And all that I've become.

I no longer want to be,

So comfortably numb.

I want to be me again,

But only find Him in my sleep.

I want to be loved again,

But who could Love a Creep?

What have I become?

I used to be so great.

Wish I could find someone,

To heal all this self-hate.

Wont somebody save me?

Wont somebody try?

Does anyone believe,

That I'm still worth the time?