Paranoia

Yesterday I cried
Your words so true
Hating myself
Feel like I am toppling
Falling with no ground below
To catch me.
So complicated
But what relationship isn't?
So cliche
Can two people really find happiness?
There will always be conflict
Without it where would be passion?
I spent the day crying
I can't let go of the guilt
But then you come to me
Hold me in your arms
And briefly the sadness disappears.
Engulfed in your scent
Your hands run through my hair
I see my home in your eyes.
Not long enough
My brain starts spinning again
So afraid this is the last time
That you'll decide
I'm not worth your strife.
You have given me no cause
To think this today
My paranoia is taking hold.
Have to convince myself
You won't run away
Or else the projection
Of my fears
Will seal my fate.