trying to succeed.

feelin lost and insecure. where were you when I needed you?
you left me in the dark, just waiting for that spark,
that light, that bright, something to tell me what's wrong and what's right.
I need something to lead the way, which way to go from day to day.
in need of some kind of sign that'll help me get by.
anything to show me what I'm doing wrong & how I can do right
guess I gotta put up a fight.
they say if you want something, go get it.
but how am I supposed to get something when I don't know what it is?
I need a plan, I need a fan, someone to tell me I can,
make it or break it, ain't no halfway famous.
I'm waitin on greatness. who am I kidding? I'll never be shameless.
the worst thing I can do is give up on myself.
need to live up to myself, my own expectations, ain't about nobody else
this is me, this is life, this is about more than just weed and pride.
this is about who I am where I'm goin and who was there for me the whole time.
I know you wanna see me fail, but this ain't your dream its mine.
I'm just tryna find myself and be my own person
just tryna be me and not worry about what hurts them.
growing up I was taught to hide what I was thinking,
now I'm realizing its speak up or start sinkin
don't let em drown you out, you gotta show em what you're about.
I got so many people tellin me what I need to do and who I need to be
but pleasing the people around me just ain't the fucking key, to succeed.
I don't wanna make the right decision just because you told me to,
I wanna do what's right because I'm the one I owe it to.
I know I've been a fuck up, I know Im going crazy and just smokin weed
but what else is there to set me free?
I know I don't follow rules and I disregard your feelings  
but I'm just looking for a quick fix and temporary healings.