Misery and Company

I never told you how you hurt me,
no, I never spoke those words at all.
that very last night in my apartment
I let you leave and I took your fall.
Do you remember holding my hand?
Smiling bigger than you had since I left
I thought "hey" sometimes there's a second chance
but all I became was a victim of theft.
You never had the courtesy for closure
so how am I supposed to stitch my wounds
when I am missing the most vital part
my heart.

I just want to know
if I meant anything
was I just a part of
misery and company?
when you feel low
do you think of me?
did I leave some mark?
something? anything?

This isn't the first song about you
but it might just be the most honest
I'm not trying to make you feel guilty
but I have to get this off of my chest.
I told everyone, especially myself
that you were somehow different from the rest
I jumped through every hoop that you set up
and I ran every single time you called
it would almost be kind of funny
if it weren't so not funny at all.

I just want to know
if I meant anything
was I just a part of
misery and company?
when you feel low
do you think of me?
did I leave some mark?
something? anything?

That one night out on my balcony
right before I went home to my family
you smoked off of my cigarettes
you gave me a night I would never forget
3 am and in the parking lot
you bent down, I said, "forget me not"
right before your lips met my lips
for the first time there we kissed.
...and kissed
I'd never been kissed quite like that.

I just want to know
if I meant anything
was I just a part of
misery and company?
when you feel low
do you think of me?
did I leave some mark?
something? anything?