Tug~A~War

Threw out my life i never knew why,
My brain and my heart never see eye to eye,
Opposite opinions have the two,
Leaving me never knowing what to do.
The heart usually wins cause it brings the most pain,
But then again my brain does drive me insane.
Its like a game of tug~a~war but neither ever win,
Back and forth they go till i just have to give in.
I can only hope the day will come when the their on the same page,
Or you might as well just lock me up in a padded cadge.
Whats right and whats wrong i may never know,
Im lead bye the blind on which way to go.