General Craziness

 I am sorry
My novel took so long
To write..
I'm sorry it was fiction,
Not fact.
I could have taken
Fertility drugs
And a chemical peel
But still I would have been the author,
Not the heroine.

I tried to play the heroine,.
My illusions were stripped from me
By force
And hung out  like long underwear
In the Minnesota winter,
Where they twisted
In the northern breeze,
And froze.


I was an idiot, living in a Hell
Of my own making
Stonewalled at every turn.
.
I will remember forever
The lies of that Hell
And the final fire
That cleansed me.