I can't decide

Falling, falling.
Breathing deeply.
Holding onto what we once had.
Trying to find a grip on reality.
I just can't let go.

Afraid to go into a down hill spiral.
A spiral with no way back.
i wish you were here.
By my side, not with her.
I am who I am because of you.

Life will never be the same.
I'm afraid.
You're gone forever.
I miss you.
You hate me.

I guess it was for thee best.
I hope you're happy.
You tore my heart out.
Threw it on the ground and stabbed it.
You're heartless.
Goodbye forever.