Silent Sorrows

Sitting here alone with my thoughts
I ponder what it's like to smiles
Not a broken facial feature
But a true bodily gesture
I can't chase away what holds me down
Maybe my mind has got the best of me
This blade looks so inviting
As it reflects light
I can see as the blade smile
Oh how good it would feel to break skin
To draw blood
To sit and watch as it puddles up
It's hard to resist
But desires must be held back
Emptiness fills my chest
And blank stares reach so distant
Quietly I observe the world around me
As it passes me by
I am nothing
I am no one
The wind flows through my hair
And the sun pounds down upon my head
Attacked by two gentle forces
Yet I cannot ward off my thoughts
In this sea of my mind
I am lost