this razor..this blood lust

walls closing in sufocating
dying everyday torment pain
it's all the same it all runs
together in this goddamned house

my life is a fucking prison my
own living hell i push on everyday
with this ball and chain weighing
me down my life is a lie

my family against me my "friends"
are fucking fake a slit to the wrist
is all it would take all i have to do
to  end it all is bleed myself dry
and watch the blood fall

Drip, Drip
Cut, Cut
Drip, Drip
its all the same self inflicting pain
it clears my head and erases my misery


im tired of being stuck stuck
in a world that doesn't give a fuck
ill show them all who i really am
who i have become who i can be

but it would only be a waste of time
for i never meant a single thing to anyone
no one ever cared for me i'll only fade and
die like a forgotten memory

ill be erased from their thoughts erased from
their heads just a ghost in the walls they would
hardly notice im dead

fuck this world fuck my life
take my wrist take this knife
slice through the layers of pain
keep on cutting until you hit the
vein

let me go just let me bleed
take this life away from me
id rather die than live one
more day in the life i lead
so i'll close my eyes and
drift into eternal sleep

i want to die im already dead
so dying for me is just like
going to bed so i close my
eyes only to awake again

i close my eyes and silently drift
away dreaming of better days i know
i will never have i know its foolish
to think that things will get better
in the end maybe it will..

fuck it it is foolish so i take
to the wrist again slicing away
all my pain and letting my blood fall
like the rain this is how i release

whats inside of me and i can never tame
the thirst no nothing will ever be enough
to quinch this razor and its bloodlust
this is my only friend the one i love
the one i hate

this razor leaves reminders of its love
in white ink crimson they were scars sealed
white with regret leaving these tragic reminders
i will never quite forget

so i close my eyes shut to die in a way
and sleep off my relentless pain and dream
of better days only to awake to relive what
i've tried so hard to forget tormenting chaos
that doesn't seem to quit

so i will just push on with a smile
that i wear so well and keep on living in
my own living hell

this is the only way and this pain is a must
so i submit to this razor and its bloodlust